Well … H E L L O!

Found this old blog of mine from over TEN YEARS ago! Went through many of my posts and I just couldn’t believe what I was reading! It literally made me laugh re-living all the situations I went through and even my mindset back then.

My friends, family and co-workers that got on my nerves so much! My INSANE, long distance, relationship with my so-called boyfriend and how I really thought he was the one but in reality, he was the worst thing that could have happened to me. I learned SO MUCH from that relationship and wished I would have done a lot of things differently.

One big thing is TELLING SOMEONE about how he treated me. Confiding in someone… anyone that would have told me that relationship wasn’t right, that is not how men treat their women, that he has characteristics of being a narcissist!

I spent SOOOOO much money and time on this man, going back and forth from Michigan to Chicago and he NEVER EVER EVER stepped one foot in my state to visit me! Not one time in 5yrs.

I finally had enough. I started looking through his phone, looking through his mail (when I visited) to find anything and everything to break up with him. I tried many times before and he would break down and SOB! One time he even threatened to off himself. At this point, I didn’t care. I NEEDED to get out of that relationship. After snooping, I learned so much! He was a bum! Living with his mother (Even though he claimed she gave him the house, but was always there smh), for YEARS never worked! He literally lied about his whole life. From his first name to his age, to even lying about the mother of his child’s age (I found his son’s birth certificate that had the ages of both parents. He basically knocked up a 17yr old when he was in his early 20’s smh. He claimed they were both the same age smh). And to top it off he was MEAN! VERY MEAN! He always made me cry. He knew I was thee most kindest person ever so he definitely took advantage of my kindness and how young I was.

He took my 20’s.

I really wish I could get that time back.

I wish I could go back and save more money, spend more time with my friends and TRAVEL! I hate him for that.

But anyways, I literally wrote about my whole life on this blog…but I will say, I didn’t know this then …but it was SO therapeutic. And I didn’t know this back then how much BLOGGING was really helping me. I was 26, graduated from college, living with my whole family in a small house and was just trying to find out who I was.

I was growing up and letting it all out ONLINE!

I thought I would come back to the Blogging World because of the outlet it gave me.

My Blog is my Therapist, as I lay on the couch and pour out what’s been going on in my life. This Blog is a piece of me .. my inner self. And it gives me peace letting it all out!

I don’t care who reads it, but please come with compassion, positivity and be ready to laugh!

I WILL NOT PUT UP ANY PICS OF MYSELF. This is literally for me to just let it out.

Cheers to the New Chapter in my life (will explain in the next post) and to raising my Blog from the dead!