I am back!

I keep telling myself I need to come back to blogging…here I am!

So much has been going on! I don’t even know where to start!

Let’s start here…I feel like I have no friends…

I have never had a huge friend circle. Never been that “popular” girl or that girl everyone wanted to be friends with…BUT, I wasn’t that “loser” girl either LOL

Always had a small circle.

The problem with a small circle of friends is sooner or later, you’re the last one in the circle, if you know what I mean.

I feel like the BIGGEST reason is I am outgrowing my friendships. I have 3 friends; they all have kids (I am the only without) and 2 of us are married. I will be 40yrs old in May, I love doing more things with my husband now, especially traveling. The ONE trip I did go on with one of my friends was a complete disaster and I absolutely hated it! That made me never want to go on another trip with any of my friends lol

Recently, my husband has been having back pain, trouble walking, numbness .. where he had to go off work while he undergoes tests to see what is going on.

You think any of my “friends” have been checking on me?

I texted one of my friends a few weeks ago and checked up on her because she was studying to be an Insurance Agent and you know what she said back? She DIDNT answer my question but questioned WHY I didn’t wish her son who just turned ONE a Happy Birthday … this is her THIRD SON. TURNED O N E. Well, excuse the fuck out of me for forgetting!? WTF! Have you checked on me and my sanity to make sure I am good while I am thee only one working and taking care of absolutely everything!

I just feel so alone. And this is why I have come back to Blogging. I need this outlet.