Today I am 40!

I still can’t believe this!

Wow! 40!

10yrs closer to 50! LOL!

Anyhoo. Haven’t posted in a while. Been going through A LOT these last 6mnths.

I believe I wrote in a previous Blog my husband showed symptoms of MS. We finally got a diagnosis. He has been receiving Ocrevus infusions as treatment and going to Physical Therapy.

It has defiantly been hard. My life has turned upset down. Everything has been on ME these past 6mmnths!

Working, doing overtime when I can, shopping, cooking, cleaning, getting him to his MANY Dr appointments, and now Physical Therapy appointments and going through the whole process of being approved for Social Security Disability.

Last year, I was planning a Girls Trip, to do something amazing for all of us turning 40 and now, today … a coworker took me out to Brunch. I actually wasn’t even going to go. I have been trying hard to not be depressed. But, I am scared. I feel like I have been in survival mode just to make sure I can afford everything on my income alone.

I literally stopped doing everything just to be able to afford paying for rent and food. We don’t go out, no going out to eat, I cook EVERYTHING, I canceled EVERYTHING we don’t need, stopped shopping and found old clothes to wear. I am even looking for a Part Time job.

I am trying so hard not to lose it.

Because my husband didn’t ask for this.

I am trying to give him all the support I can give while I am praying for my own sanity.