Recently my cousin graduated with her Doctorate and had a Grad Party, yesterday.

Three of my sisters and my mother were invited.

I never got an invite.

Have you felt offended you were not invited to an event, even though you KNEW you were not going to go even if you were invited?

THIS IS ME! LOL!!!

I haven’t gone hardly ANYWHERE in almost 2yrs. I work and go home. We are VERY limited with our funds due to my husband not working. Sometimes I don’t even want to waste gas to go somewhere. Yes, it’s that serious.

But I guess what hurts is that I feel like no one is thinking about me. Like I am forgotten. Of course, I want to go places, celebrate my family/friends’ achievements, their next Chapter in their lives etc. It’s not like I am a hater and envious. At this time, I just haven’t been feeling it…

So, I am just in my feelings a little. Even though I knew I probably wouldn’t go if she invited me.

Maybe it’s also because these last few years have also been lonely.

When someone gets sick, you really see who your true family/friends are because the calls/text stop when you can’t go out like you used to, when you are working more to pay bills, when you just don’t have any money to go out to dinner. People don’t check up on you anymore. They find other people that can actually hang out with them.

I had a very small friend circle, and I lost all of them around the same time. Two of them literally stopped inviting me places when I told them my husband had MS. I just don’t understand why…this REALLY hit me hard. More than I care to admit. This happened a year ago and I still think about it, and it still hurts. I think mostly because we did not have a falling out, nothing. Just stopped calling, inviting me places and of course they posted it on FB.

The even more crazy part is one of them texted me maybe 5months later asking if everything was okay because she hadn’t heard from me. I told her “Oh I have been working SO MUCH…Just doing a lot of overtime”. She said OKAY and that was it. THAT WAS IT. Didn’t ask about my husband, how I was doing. Nothing. I just expect MORE from people I call friends.

I am learning not to take things personally. There are a lot of reasons why people are not invited places. This cousin and I were not close at all so…maybe she invited relatives she was close to …

This will be the last time I think about it, and I will be moving on…like everything else…