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I'm KB! Reactivating this blog to be my Safe Place, my journal, a place for my piece of mind for my emotions and whats happening in my life!

Life Is Good

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Been doing great. Working and saving money. I have now decided to move to Chicago 2nd week in Aug and I start school for Paralegal Studies on Sep 9 at Northwestern College in Chicago.
My 26th birthday will be here May 23rd and I am having a big Birthday Bash on May 22nd on the Detroit Princess boat Downtown Detroit. I am planning on losing 30lbs by then so I can look sexier than EVER WITH A FANASTIC DRESS!!! I cant wait and the closer I get the more excited I am.
My boyfriend is coming down to celebrate with me and FINALLY meet my parents. Its been over 3 yrs so its due time.
 am just so happy. Im happy for my life, health and strength and that God gives me the strength to face another day to be a better Child of His, a better friend, sister and daughter. Life is worth so much value and we take it for granted.
With more news, my co-worker quit last Friday. She got her check and said peace out! Its more to the story:
She came here about 8yrs ago on a work transfer from General Motors from Ohio then they laid her off after 4yrs and she found a job where I work. Her whole family is in Ohio…her mom, her boyfriend…who just proposed…her siblings. So she has planned to move…just had a lease she was stuck with and now the lease ran out and she had to be out in a week so she bounced. I am so happy for her. Not only did she leave a job she didnt even like…she went for what was in her heart. She got tired of playing the long-distance game with her man and traveling back and forth to see him and her mom. She gave me inspiration for real. I cant wait to say peace out to my job! Counting down the days!

Taking It To The Next Step

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I have been involved with my boyfriend for 3yrs on February 3rd. It has been a great relationship. We have had our rocky times but we have gotten through it together…and lasted. Even though I live in Michigan and he is in Chicago and were see each other once or twice a month, we are still together. Through the hurt (Not too much) and tears (Sad I couldn’t see him a lot).

Now I have come to a place where I am tired of not seeing my man every day. I want to sleep, cuddle, eat and play with him just like other couples do with each other. So I have decided its time. Its time to start applying for jobs, getting interviews and moving there so I can see him everyday! I am already in my process. He has obtained a new job as well which makes it even better.

Another big step I am leaning towards is moving in with him. He still lives in the same home he grew up in. He son stays in his old room. The home is paid for so we would go half on utilizes. I will be saving so much than if I rented my own. And you know what? I’m ready! And so is he. We know this is it and we are going to get married someday. I’m so excited I finally found the one and I feel so loved by him and I’m ready to start my life with him also. It’s just a great feeling and I just wanted to share that with you guys!

I’m extra excited for our Anniversary. I thought about doing something simple…Italian dinner and then off to a jazz/blues club. I also thought about getting something sexy for the night time when we everything is over. Maybe even something real slutty from Lover’s Lane. I told my co-worker and she said I was doing too much! How is that doing too much? Dont every woman do something sexy for her man every once in awhile? Maybe cause she is 40yrs old and pretty old school and dont know nothing bout that…prob havent even done anything like that either! Who knows, but Im going to do what I want!!!

Welcome 2010

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I had a great New Year’s Eve!
Didn’t go to the club. No party. Didn’t even get really dressed up … at all. I went over to my gurl house and we just drank and watched TV. Watched the ball drop. It was pretty fun. No drama, no fighting, just 2 bottles of wine and a gallon of Bacardi. I noticed it takes me a lot to get drunk. So got pretty tipsy and that’s about it … still had fun though.
 Don’t believe in making New Year Resolutions. Who actually keep those anyways? Never regret things you do. Just grow and try not to make the same mistakes again.
I am hoping this year brings forth new possibilities, new opportunities and another chance to embrace new changes!
Each day I wake up God gives me another chance to be a better person, girlfriend, sister, daughter, best friend. Another day of being the best Child of God I can be! And I thank Him for that chance!
Hope you guys had a great night and have great opportunities ahead of you as well.
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And The Drama Continues …

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So my mother decides she doesn’t want to drop “the boyfriend” issue.
She is still not giving up on try and getting me to stay home for the holiday. A couple days after the first half of the drama, I woke up and started getting myself together for work. She begins talking about how she doesn’t like the fact that I am going to Chicago and I need to stay home with my family for Christmas. I told her I spent the holiday with them last year and I would really like to spend with my boyfriend.
She then went on and told me I need to get some self-respect. I couldn’t believe it. She then went on about how I can be with someone that would treat me this way and that she doesn’t want to bury a daughter. I then got loud and said he doesn’t do anything to mistreat me. We had one small argument she heard and how everyone argues. She then told me not to yell. So I said forget it. I let her say what she had to say, even though none of it was true. I guess it was making her feel better to say it.
Later that night, I went to one of my sisters and told her what she said and that I was very hurt that she told me I needed self-respect (I actually got in my car on the way to work and cried). She then said maybe I should just let them meet him and see how a great guy he is and she wouldn’t think the way she does. I actually was FINALLY going to let everyone meet him sometime soon (Yeah, 3yrs is a long time to go) but got so pissed I just said forget it! But maybe she is right. Maybe I will let them meet him cause one thing that will get me straight fighting is to diss my man!
I will let you guys know how that goes!

Let Me Handle This

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No relationship is perfect. Although we would all love to assume so. All couples get into little arguments every once in awhile. Some arguments are bigger than others.
Since my boyfriend and I do not live in the same state we really don’t have much to fight about since we don’t even see each other every day. The most we really fight about is one of us will get angry the other person didn’t call or one is too tired to stay on the phone and talk. Real stupid stuff. Believe me!
Yesterday was a very lazy and laid-back day for him and me. We haven’t spent lot of our time on the phone during the week because I have been working 65hrs a week and when I come home, I just want to go to sleep. So Sunday, we chatted for most of the afternoon. On the phone I learned that Brittany Murphy died by reading someone’s Twitter. I then began looking on the internet for more answers. I told him about it and he couldn’t remember who she was and I was giving him movies and he still didn’t get it.
He then started asking me all these questions and I tried to answer but he kept interrupting me then we got into a big fight on the fact that I’m tired of him ALWAYS interrupting me when I talk and he claims I interrupt him (He ALWAYS ALWAYS interrupt me … not the other way around). We hung p on each other and everything! Lol See, stupid stuff. Lol P.S. we made up 10min later.
Anyways, I woke up this morning getting myself together for work. I was in the kitchen and my mom came in asking me if I am still going to Chicago for Christmas. I answered back of course I am. She said even after all that fighting? I told her it wasn’t a big deal. We were hardly even fighting. She said oh no it wasn’t blah blah blah. She said well just don’t come home crying to me when you have a black eye. I was like woooooow!
I left to get some things out of my room to leave for work. I went into the kitchen for my lunch, and hoping the conversation was over. She had on the news and said how the woman on the TV is missing and her husband probably did it. I asked how you know I wasn’t yelling at him. How do you know I didn’t start the argument? How do you know if we did get into a fight, I wouldn’t throw the first punch?
She then said if I didn’t have such low self esteem I can find a better man who respects me. Excuse me? I have been with this man for 3yrs in February and it makes me so mad when people make WHO HAVE NEVER EVEN MET HIM makes up this crap that he is such a bad guy! And low self esteem, he has been the ONLY person in this world who has ever truly made me feel beautiful. If I have issues about the way I look it’s because of my sisters and my parents. I was hardly called my freakin name in that house when I was growing up. It was fatty this and fat hog that and now that I am older and I can actually love the skin I’m in and have finally found a man who loves the same…please believe I’m not giving that up. He gives me the utmost respect, never has laid a hand on me and no I am not staying because I believe I can’t find someone else but because of that fact that he does make me happy and yeah…we actually FELL IN LOVE! Someone actually fell in love with fatty! Can u believe it!!!
This is another reason why my family has never met my boyfriend. And if they keep acting like they will never meet him until my engagement party!

Update on Muah

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Wow, it has been almost a month since the last time I wrote a Blog. Guess I have been a really busy bee!
So this month has been one with surprises…some good and some bad.
1st I know this is going to make some of you a little sad but… I took out my nipple piercings on 12-12-09. After I changed the bar bells and put in the rings it went downhill for my right nipple. I found out the piercer pierced me way too deep and behind my nipple. It was hurting and kept bleeding (Not a lot just a little). I was always in pain and I got very sick and tired of it so I made the decision to take them out. My boyfriend was sad but he understood. Maybe in another year I will get them pierced again (And of course go to a different piercer).
2nd I am so excited Christmas is coming. Not for the presents, not even to buy any gifts for anyone. But to spend Christmas with my loving boyfriend. I miss him so much. I am leaving Christmas Eve and will return Sunday. I love getting away to Chicago to be with him. I need time away from my family!
I realized this year I could care less about the gifts. Don’t care who spending money on whom. Yes, it’s nice but I’m over it. I guess it’s me becoming an adult. It’s for the kids. I want them to have a good time.
3rd So what happened to the financially stable Kristen that loves to save? What happened to the Kristen that had $2000 in her savings account and knew where her money was going? I have been spending so much its crazy. Some were car repairs and a lot was shopping, shopping and more shopping! My savings is now gone and I’m again starting from scratch. Thank God I don’t have any credit cards or any HUGE bills and can’t wait for that tax return coming up! Hope it’s good! So more saving and less spending!!!
4th So now that I have decided I need to calm down and save more, I do want to do something for myself once or twice a month just to spoil me for whatever reason … because I can! So I started getting my nails done and I freakin love it! My nails are freakin gorgeous and I can’t believe I went so long without having them done! I have had the French mani and right now I have pink and white….sooo pretty! I’m going to start posting pics soon!
I also started back into Scrapbooking. This summer I got into it but was only concerned with doing My Wedding. Well I defiantly stepped out of that phase and now want to do pics of my friends, family and of course me and my man! I am defiantly going to post pic of my finished pages and I hope you guys go easy on my cause I am a 1st timer! J
5th I was so saddened to hear about Brittany Murphy’s death. So tragic and I am learning that she may have even died of natural causes (Now I hear it may be because of her eating disorder). How natural is death at the age of 32 but if it’s your time to go Home it’s your time. My prayers go out to her family. She was such a beautiful person an actress.
To all my new friends of my Blog, I love to stay up to date with everyone than just here on Blogger, so please follow me at http://twitter.com/LuvlyKristen. Follow me and I will follow you!

It's Too Deep

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Its been 2 and a half months since I have had my nipples pierced. I went yesterday to get new jewelry. I really wanted rings. I went back to the same place I got them pierced and the same person put them in. He said my nipples were healing great.
This morning my right nipple was in a little pain. I thought it was probably because of the new ring and just felt that maybe the ring was making it painful. So I went to another place and started checking out new rings. The woman piercer there, Lisa, checked out my nipple and she said it was pierced too deep. Its not through my nipple but behind it. Oh great. She said my body was rejecting the ring. She said the way to fix it is to use titanium rings. Give it another 2 months in and it should be fine and should heal the right way. She said after the 2 months and I want to go with something cheaper then I can at that point (The titanium rings were $50 for both) and if it was still being rejected, I would have to take out the ring completely and let it heal and re-pierce it. Ouch.
So I got my new ones in now and I hope everything goes right because I love my rings and really dont want to have to go through that pain again. 😦
I was a little but angry that the damn guy that pierced it acted like he didnt know anything was wrong and said the looked fine but right when Lisa looked at it she know what was wrong!
Just hope the new rings helps…

Un-Welcome Guest

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Yesterday, my friend Carilyn and I went to Emagine theater to go see New Moon. It was amazing like I knew it would be. I love the theater we went to. It had an open bar and of course I got my Long Island (Thats my go-to drink now-a-days) and it was sooo strong and good! Yum!
After the movies we went over to Hooters to eat. I never ate there before but heard the food was good. Which it wasn’t. I had a fish sandwich and fries…fish was hard and the fries was under cooked. Never will go to again…
While we were there a mutual “internet” friend we talk to sent Carilyn a message asking her if he could join us (I’m assuming he read her tweet in knowing where we were. He said he works across the street and was so close so he stopped by). I met this guy on Yahoo Messenger…maybe in a chat room. I have talked to him on there for yeeeeears. But we never met. I have this thing that I keep internet friends…internet friends and real life friends….real life friends. How him and Carilyn met on the internet…niether her nor I really know the answer to that question. I have a HUUUUGE hunch: Me and him were talking over the chat one day about a party my friend Carilyn was going to…it was called the Black Party a lot of people here go to. He was going as well. He claimed maybe he knew her…I said I highly doubt it. Next thing I knew, he was following her on twitter…all of a sudden he’s Facebook friends with her. I became a little bit angry cause I believed after he and I had that conversation that he took it upon himself to go to my Twitter (He & I are following each other) look for her, follow her and then look for her on Facebook. She doesn’t know him. She didn’t think anything of it because their mutual friend on Facebook is another guy she knows so she just think he added her because of him. Why I dont think so? Because this guy is a lame…while we messaged each other he constantly asked for pics of me, relationships, do I got a man, my friends I could hook him up with. Its like he was basically being a little desperate and my gurl is starting to feel the same way cause she now getting the same 21 questions. No, I dont think he is crazy…someone just want hold hundreds of conversations with you for more than 5yrs and never try and do something (As in asking to meet constantly) …just think he wants a little more female attention.
Back to the story, so once Carilyn told he could come (Which she really didnt, but she was being nice) he shows up 10min later like he was outside waiting for her response. All of a sudden, he there standing saying hi…ummm ok. The conversation was ok. But for some reason it was just a little bit awkward. You could tell he was tryin to talk to my gurl and she def wasn’t interested. lol I was getting a little drunk because I had another 2 Long Islands :). I asked him why he wasn’t drinking. He said he had to get home and clean his apartment! I looked at my phone and it was around 8pm! I was like ummm ok. That made me think he was more of a lame that I thought! I then told him I would buy him a shot…just 1 shot. He said he used to drink all the time but doesn’t anymore like that. Every now and then. Ok ok ok. So he didnt take it so I let it go. Our food came…he claimed his food was cold to get more food. Carilyn thought he was being cheap and wanted to get more food. lol
After eating, we went over to Lucky’s. Its a fun place with lots of games and arcades…and a bar! We bought a card with money to play. We just paid $5. Carilyn thought a real gentleman would have paid for me and her to pay. I understood where she was coming from but it wasn’t a date or anything…but I understood. We played some games. We then went to the bar. Carilyn got a drink. I just got water because I had to sober up to drive back home (Dont drink and drive!). All of a freakin sudden…he WANTS A DRINK! Im like I offered you that in the restaurant and now he wants it! But I am a woman of my word…but he didn’t want a shot. He wants a drink. I asked him what kind. For a person that used to drink allll the time, he had no clue. Dont remember what his favorite drink was or nothing…so you know what he got…Rum & Coke. I just started cracking up. I told him to get a man drink. lol He laughed and he still wanted it so I said fine. Carilyn had a small amount of wine left and he asked for it. I guess to front he could down it or something? Yeah…big man!
I can read people so well sometimes. I dont understand why he had to lie and say he used to drink all the time. With me, you dont have to lie to kick it. I have at least 1 friend that doesnt drink. I dont try and persuade her to. Im fine with it. Life goes on. lol He obviously didnt know what he wanted cause he didnt know what kind of drinks are out there…so he got the easiest one he could think of. And probably the lightest…just a baby drink…or maybe Im just an alchi! lol
So we are finally leaving and Carilyn and I are going to my car and he to his. On the way to my car, he claims he will walk us to my car. Im like ok. As we are walking, we dont even get to the parking lot…we are about to cross the street to get to the cars and he says “Ok see you guys later”. I say “I thought you were going to walk us to my car”. He said “ITS TOO COLD!” Are you serious? YOU volunteered to walk us. We didnt ask. And now all of a sudden, its too cold? So we said fine. Bye. And we started walking (I was laughing…in disgust). He then says ok he will walk us but can I give him a ride to his car. I just looked at him…then looked away thinkin “Is this brother fo real?” By the time we got to my car, he says he is pretty near by and says he will walk. I give him a hand slap and say holla!
So it was a fun night….

Faith

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Today was the funeral of my cousin’s wife. Funeral’s, of course, are sad. But this was thee saddest funeral I have EVER been to. There was not a dry eye in the church.
After her sudden death I started thinking about death myself. What happens after? Where do we go? Do we know we are dead? Can we see earth? What does it feel like to die?
I am a Christian. I believe in Jesus Christ. I know without Him there is nothing. I know Heaven is a beautiful place…peaceful, no hurt, no pain, no tears. But I am scared for not knowing when my time is up. How will I die? Like is so short. It’s precious. Tomorrow is never promised. God never makes a mistake. He took my cousin for a reason. It was her time.
As a Christian, we just have to follow God as closely as possible. Follow his word. I have always been close to God, but her death has made me even closer. Made me realize we never know when its time. I need to go to church more. Pay my tithes and read my Bible. I can’t wait to walk through the gates of Heaven and when I meet God, I want Him to tell me I was a faithful servant and I have done good.
For those that don’t believe or don’t know about Him, please find the way. It only takes that 1st step forward…you have to want to believe.
Trust me, it’s amazing when you do.
Stay blessed everyone!

Trying To Help…

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I have said in previous Blogs I don’t have many close friends. And the close friends I have I try to best to keep them that way and do everything I can for them.
One of my friends have a mutual associate. This associate has done crap to both me and her. I told the associate how we are not friends and the reason why. We will never hang out. But if she does talk to me (On Yahoo) I will answer but it doesn’t go farther than that. I refuse to let people think we are cool as hell we when are not.
A couple months ago this associate came to my girl’s home…unexpected…not calling…just showing up. Of course, she didn’t answer the door. Just ignored it. My friend doesn’t like coming and telling people they are not cool. Which is a little weird because she is pretty blunt with everyone else…but not to people that really need to hear it.
Today, I was speaking with this person online and she mentioned going to her house and her not answering the door. So, I just let her know. I basically told her that my girl doesn’t consider her to be a friend and they aint cool like that and never will be. She then got very defensive and asked why my friend sent her a friend request on Facebook. I said I didn’t know and all I could tell her was what my girl told me. She then got angry and wrote my gurl a message on Facebook. I was thinking “Oh great!” I was so mad at myself for putting myself as the monkey in the middle when I should have just kept my mouth shut…so I sent a text to my friend to give her a heads up of what just happened, and she was going to get a message from her.
My friend then texted me back very irritated and that this was childish, she doesn’t care, and she is over the whole situation, and I should have never said anything.
I felt horrible. Why did I say anything?
I then check my Twitter updates. My friend is updating her status with messages of her friend circle is getting smaller and smaller and she is okay with that. And that she is tired of fake people. Is she talking about me? This little thing I did…trying to help…and now she is calling me fake? Is it that serious? I never even asked. I didn’t want to know the answer.
The next day I asked her a question about something different and before she answered the question she asked if I was going to say sorry regarding what I did or just ignore the whole situation.
I then apologized and said I was wrong. I then said if she was okay with having people come to her house unexpected and not say anything to them about them not being cool like that…fine. Its your business.
Was I that wrong? Me and my friend have never got into any kind of fight in the 11yrs we have known each other and to call me fake…wow! Hopefully she was speaking of someone else….
Next time I will know better…