I Am Back

I cant believe its been almost a year since my last post!

So much has happened..

April 2024, my husband was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis.

He has been our of work since Dec 2023 due to MS symptoms and nerve pain.

We have now been denied Social Security Disability twice now and our Attorney has now appealed again.

I am the sole provider for my family. Been working overtime just to pay bills.

It has definitely been hard but The Most High has truly been our provider and we are sooooo grateful.

I also lost THREE FRIENDSHIPS last year. I truly had to grieve a lot…grieved that even thought my husband is still alive, his life would never been the same. AND grieving lost friendships.

It has been hard but we are good, hubby is still walking, on a walker, but still walking.

So Tired…In Need Of A Break…

Haven’t been posting in a while. I have been working 55hrs a week and have been sooo tired. But I am still here.
It’s funny how my friends are always asking me to go out but I decline because of all the hours I put into work and how I need sleep when I am not working and they get pissed! I just don’t understand that…maybe cause some of unemployed where they can go out every other night and chill. For some reason, it cant get into their heads some people still have jobs and want to keep them. Maybe I need to stop working and get into the fun…hmmm…maybe not…lol
So, in my last Blog I wrote about myself needing a change and was thinking about getting nipple rings. Well, I thought about it and I decided I really want them and will get them! I decided against the tattoo. I have no idea where I want to get it on my body. The only place will be my shoulder. But, then I thought on my wedding day. I would maybe wear a dress that may show some skin and don’t want a tattoo showing in my beautiful pics and don’t want to put make-up over it to mess up my dress (Don’t know why I am thinking so far ahead but thats just how I am) so I may take a rain check on that unless I think of another place where I would really like it.
I am heading to Chicago to see my boyfriend for the long holiday weekend. I am leaving Sep 4th and when I get there I will be getting the rings so he can hold my hand through the pain! lol
But nothing is new with me. Just working and saving my money. Applying to more jobs in Chicago. My heart and my other half is there so that is the place I need to be.
Can’t wait until this next weekend! And I will def let you guys know how it went!

Ladies, I Have Heard It All…Part 2

This is the conclustion of my Blog, “Ladies, I Have Heard It All”. Before I posted that Blog, I told that guy that I was talking about that I was going to write a blog about him because of the craziness he was talking about and I just wanted everyone to know. He said he was fine with it and all he asked was for me not to put his screen name. A in it and I agreed.

Today, I was on Yahoo Messenger again and he IM’ed me about the Blog. I told him to go read it. The 1st thing he commented on was the description I wrote about him. He said, “defamation of character is coming up fo sure”.

I told him thats what he decribed he looked like and that was my first impression from what I saw from his pic. Then he was made how the comments were basically calling him immature (Which he is…so whats the problem). He then said, “terrance howard… i aint flva flave either. And for the record its mostly muscle when i bulk up during winter” (Which I could care less about). Then he tells me he is going to file a lawsuit and in his lawsuit he is going to tell them what I do on company time (Sometimes when I talk go him on Y! Messenger I at work) which is none of his BUSINESS! So I dont know where he is going with that. That shit don’t scare me and I told him how does he know I don’t talk to him while I am on my lunch?

I then told him I was getting irritated and he said he should be the one thats irritated because I “broke that confedentiality “yahoo code”‘ I said that I told him what I was going to write so what the fuck he is problem? I asked him what was he really mad about? Was he really mad about the Blog or that I said he wasn’t no Terrance Howard and asked him why he was crying. He said he is tired of trifling people are. And then he said this: “Its all good blog lady. I dont care to terrance Howard in the least. But thats how u high yellow people do it. House slave mentality but its all good.”

And you know what? I didnt even go it his level. I knew he wanted me to argue back and maybe if I was face to face with this bitch I would have but I am not one to argue over the net. Its childish as hell. So I told him to take me off his list and never IM me again. I am not AT ALL scared of his crazy ass lawsuit..cause HE HAS NONE! I told him everything I was going to blog about so…come on…come up with something better than that!

He’s a bitch and near 40yrs old and still single because no respectable woman WOULD EVER have a serious committment with his black ugly ass!

He is the one that should be sorry evr made me mad. Because ofths I am giving out his screen name, ladies if you ever want to IM him to cuss him the fuck out!

His screen name on Yahoo Messenger is blackpharaoh74.

DON’T EVER FUCK WITH ME AGAIN BITCH! AND I HOPE THAT BITCH ASS NIGGA READS THIS SHIT! FUCK YOU AND GO TO HELL NIGGA!!!

Ladies, I Have Heard It All…

We can have Yahoo Messenger up at my job to talk to other co-workers about work things rather than email, but of course, I have to be the bad girl and sometimes use ot for my own personal use. I was a little bored, so I went into a Yahoo Chat and this guy started chatting with me. I love Yahoo Messenger! I been on there since I was in middle school, so I know all the games when it comes to Instant Messaging lol.
I told him up front how I got a man (I like for men to know so they know I am NOT going to have cyber with them..yes people still do that). We came upon the conversation of couples living together then marriage. I told him when I do live in the same state as my man I would like to have my own place and then maybe talk about living together at a later date. He agreed and said thats exactly what he likes because he gets tired of women and don’t like to be with them 24/7 plus he wants to be able to “miss her”. I was like oooookay and told him that eventually I would like to move in with my man but right now we straight just living separately.
He then went on to say how he knows how he is and he will get tired of being with a woman every single day so when he does get married…him and his wife will leave at different houses and see each other maybe 3 times a week (He doesn’t want to see her everyday). I was so confused when he said this so I asked if there a big reason why you wouldn’t want to see your wife everyday? Is the only reason because you want to be able to miss her? Guess what he said ladies…”u’re misunderstanding me. i would love her for her inteligence, poise, grace etc. thing is if i see u everyday i loose my admiration”. I couldn’t believe what I was READING! So I said that he must not really love her if he loses admiration for her that freakin quick.
He then went on to say its his “theory” that when he lives with women he begins to see the flaws in the person that he didnt see before. So I asked what the flaws were…I hope you are sitting down gurls! This motha fucka said, “dont hate a brother…. shes got more cellulite than i noticed before. she really aint all that with no make up on.” Gurl’s, I had to take a step back from my computer cause I was seriously about to hit something. I couldn’t believe there is a man out there thinking like this…what if there’s more? So this is what I said to him…first I asked what the hell he looked liked. He said he was 6″ and weigh 225 but his pic looked like he was 260. He claims he lost all that weight. I couldn’t really see his face but he wasn’t no Terrance Howard! I then told him “no one is perfect. If you want a flawless barbie doll go buy one cause you not going to find one in this world. Even if you do, people age. We winkle, we have babies and get fat and our titties hang. What are you going to do…pay for her to go Dr. 90210 everytime you want somethng nipped and tucked? Thats crazy. What if she thought that shit of you. She woke up one day and said your dick too little or you too much of a fat ass or you just to plain ugly for her? Does that make you feel good? Thats really fucked up shit…you know you aint perfect and by the shit you just was saying looks like you got a lot of growing up to do and you almost damn near 40 (He said he was 34yrs old). But thats your opinion and your life so live it to the fullest.” But I really think if you REALLY want a long lasting…
He understoodd where I was coming from but insisted that is how is he. I told him good luck in finding a woman to fullfill THOSE needs cause thats fuckin CRRRRRAZY!
I then asked for him to tell me how he would tell women his theory (He has said before he has had numerous women cuss him out when he talks to them about it) and said he never would actually tell women he is dating! Wow. I really feel bad for the woman who get this man…he’s def a winner!

Happy 4th Of July Eve

I am so excited I am going to be heading my way to Chicago, IL tomorrow evening to spend the holiday and weekend with my man. We have been doing this long-distance thing for a while now and I can’t wait until the day when we will be together…
I hope everyone has a great holiday and has lots to eat. Don’t get too close tro the firecrackers!

First Blog

Hello Blogger Pals! This is my new Blog site and Im so excited…
My name is Kristen and I am 26yrs younf from Michigan. I am in a very committed long distance relationship for the past 3yrs. I LOVE Blogging so please come and share in my joy, pain, and tears as I blog about my past, present and my future…