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My Co-Workers Are Insane

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Why can’t I have coworkers that turn into family like most people?

Mine are so annoying!

I am 39 and have worked since I was 16yrs old. ALWAYS kept a job!

In over 20yrs of working, I have had 8 jobs (5 “grown-up jobs”). Currently I have been working at a Credit Union for almost 5yrs. The older I get the more I am learning, the longer you are at a job, you find out the real craziness in folks.

  • There will always be that one person who has been there almost 20yrs and literally gets away with things they are not supposed to do.
  • The one that has been at the company for 10+ yrs and still dont know what the hell they are doing!
  • The one that can’t handle professional criticism and always defensive.
  • Let’s not forget the one that literally comes in, doesn’t speak (When you ask her questions, she has an attitude) does her work and just leave.

I also have a coworker that HUMS LOUDLY while she has her ear plugs in and burps!

BUT, even after all this, I love what I do, and I do my job very well! Income is good, benefits are great and 15min from my home.

I’m blessed to have a job .. still annoyed though.

Taking It To The Next Step

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I have been involved with my boyfriend for 3yrs on February 3rd. It has been a great relationship. We have had our rocky times but we have gotten through it together…and lasted. Even though I live in Michigan and he is in Chicago and were see each other once or twice a month, we are still together. Through the hurt (Not too much) and tears (Sad I couldn’t see him a lot).

Now I have come to a place where I am tired of not seeing my man every day. I want to sleep, cuddle, eat and play with him just like other couples do with each other. So I have decided its time. Its time to start applying for jobs, getting interviews and moving there so I can see him everyday! I am already in my process. He has obtained a new job as well which makes it even better.

Another big step I am leaning towards is moving in with him. He still lives in the same home he grew up in. He son stays in his old room. The home is paid for so we would go half on utilizes. I will be saving so much than if I rented my own. And you know what? I’m ready! And so is he. We know this is it and we are going to get married someday. I’m so excited I finally found the one and I feel so loved by him and I’m ready to start my life with him also. It’s just a great feeling and I just wanted to share that with you guys!

I’m extra excited for our Anniversary. I thought about doing something simple…Italian dinner and then off to a jazz/blues club. I also thought about getting something sexy for the night time when we everything is over. Maybe even something real slutty from Lover’s Lane. I told my co-worker and she said I was doing too much! How is that doing too much? Dont every woman do something sexy for her man every once in awhile? Maybe cause she is 40yrs old and pretty old school and dont know nothing bout that…prob havent even done anything like that either! Who knows, but Im going to do what I want!!!

Wrong Vs. Petty

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Last Wednesday was not a good day for me at work.
Back in September, when I got my nipples pierced, I told a few co-workers. They, of course, were very shocked. One of my co-workers thought it would be funny to tell another co-worker who is a man about them just to see what he will say…as a joke. So, I agreed. I IM’d him on the Yahoo Messenger and told him about it. Of course, he was shocked as well. The bad part of it is, I got into the conversation a little bit too deep. I got a little explicit. I basically just asked if he wanted to suck on them (Oopps) and he never really answered me (Thank God). I “lol” and changed the conversation and then it ended. I never asked for him to meet me anyway. I never asked for his number. I never went beyond that. It was COMPLETLY a joke and I thought he knew of this. I never spoke like that to him before and I thought by myself being so forward with it, he would know it was a joke as well.
Unfortunately, he didn’t. I saw him after work a few days later. I said hi and asked how he was. He then pulled out his phone and asked me for my number! I was shocked. All I did was smile, said “huh” and acted like I didn’t know what he was talking about. He asked me again and I said the same thing. He then became angry and said “Oh, you going to act like that?” turned and walked away.
I, of course, understood that he did take it the wrong way and thought I was coming on to him. Yes, I can certainly understand why. You just can’t say certain things to certain people without them getting “feelings” for you. Some people you can joke around with and left will still go on normally.
The next day, I tried to apologize. I went to his desk to say something to him, and he actually gave me the “hand” and said “BYE!” (Yes, he put up his hand! Who still does that? lol). I tried IM’ing him again and he wouldn’t answer me back! So I am certainly not about to bow down and break my legs to apologize to this man and he is acting like a damn child and won’t even talk to me. Yes, I dissed you but act like a man and grow up! After a while, I began to say hi to him and he said hi to me. He acted like everything was fine and there were no hurt feelings.
Last Wednesday, my manager called me in her office. She gets a call from the manager in Human Resources, and she wants to meet with me and my manager about an instant message. At this time, I had no idea what she was talking about (I honestly forgot about the whole thing by this time). That whole situation happened in September, so I wasn’t even thinking about it anymore. I got to the Human Resources manager’s office, and we sit down. She then goes on to tell me she is doing an investigation regarding an instant messenger conversation regarding “piercings”. She named the person I was talking with and gave me the printed conversation to remind myself of it. My heart began racing! I just couldn’t believe it! This man actually went to Human Resources on me! She then began to discuss Sexual Harassment. She said I wasn’t fired and that it wasn’t really Sexual Harassment but misusing work equipment on work time. But she still wanted me to take a Sexual Harassment course where it is her talking and let her know when I finish it.
At the end of the meeting, I was so pissed off! I was pissed off at myself for joking around like that. I was embarrassed my manager (Whom was another woman, but it still was embarrassing) had to read the conversation and know I am nasty like that (lol) and most of all, I was PISSED THE FUCK off because this grown ass man knew I wasn’t trying to harass him. He was just pissed off because I didn’t give his ass my number and I dissed him! And he is being petty as HELL about the whole damn situation and thought to get back with me he would go to Human Resources!
So what if I DID give him my number? Would he still have gone to HR? I don’t think so. I wouldn’t even be writing this blog right now if I just gave that man my number and just made his day! He is a pissed off man and wanted revenge and went to try and take someone’s job away as a result.
I was wrong … but he is petty as hell. He needs to grow up. Rejection is a part of life. And now I see why his ass is still fucking single. He got a problem…a real problem.

I Am Not Going To Settle

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“I am not going to settle”
So what does this sentence REALLY mean? You not going to settle for someone that is ugly? You are not going to settle for dark skin people…people with big ears or bug eyes.
I think these days people are taking these words a little over their heads…
Today at lunch time a few of my co-workers were having a discussion about how its sad how “young women these days” are in relationships where their boyfriends are degrading them, speak to them and use them any kind of way they want. I don’t know if they were speaking of anyone in particular (Reminds me of that situation where my co-worker sent me that message on the work messenger, mistakenly, saying how my boyfriend is “intimidating” me…but that story is in a previous blog…go check it out. Called “Messenger Scandal”) and I surely didn’t ask. And of course I agreed no one should be in any relationship where there is always negativity flying around.
My co-worker (The one that I seriously think is Bi-Polar) then says how she is not going to settle for any man. And I replied that I wouldn’t settle for someone that disrespects me constantly either. She then said that was not all she is talking about…she was referring to money and allll the glory that comes with it! She said her ex-husband made over $40K and she was used to having that and will not talk to a man with less.
First off, she hasn’t been with her ex-husband in over 5yrs so you think she would have gotten used to that by now.
Second, why is it always about money with people now a day?
And I am not trying to be mean by saying this next thing by any means necessary boys and girls so if you get offended, my bad…but a lot of these people that that I have spoken to that want wealth and gold in their mates…they are not really doing much with their lives thier own damn selves. Yes, they may have a 9 to 5 job, but how much are you making a year, sweetie? Yes, you went to school, but did you graduate? I am not trying to be mean or angry under any circumstances…I know its great to want more for yourself. Always look higher. But why look down on the man next to you when both of you are in the same place financially?
Yes, I know its pretty great. Money can buy you tons of things but what ever happened to just loving someone for who they are?
What if they did make $40,000/yr, but their profession was a cab driver, garbage man, or maintenance worker?
A woman I know told me one time how she was at the gas station and this guy was trying to talk to her. She said he was really cute and defiantly her type. She even gave him her real number. But then as he walked away, he got into a cab and drove away. She then said she wasn’t going to accept any calls from him because of the fact that he was a cab driver. And she knew this was pretty shallow of her but that’s just how she is.
I can understand wanting the best of the best, but just because that man was a cab driver didn’t mean he was going to love her any less? He could have loved her more than she ever knew a man could, but she would never know that because she thought he didn’t make a lot of money…and you never know…he could have been living in a mansion with 6 cars surrounding his house and he was just driving a cab as a hobby! lol
My thing is don’t set so many limitations that will block you from someone that may be meant for you.
That garbage man could give you the best years of your life!

Messenger Scandal

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I have been working since I was 16. I have held 6 jobs since then. I have gotten along with all of my co-workers and upper management. Of course, there is going to be gossip here and there. I have done it and I am sure there have been individuals who have gossiped about me.
I have been at my present employer for 2 years in mid-September. I remember on my 1ST DAY of work, while I was being trained my Supervisor had told me to not talk to too many people because there is a lot of gossip that goes around. I nodded my head thinking, “Ok, couldn’t be that bad. There is gossip everywhere.”
That day, I have lunch with another Supervisor and another co-worker. They basically told me the same thing. And then the Supervisor began talking about OTHER management. I was set back at this point. I have never been in a company where on the 1st day of employment I am warned about department gossip then hear management talking bad about other management. Of course, I knew that occurred…maybe back and forth between people that are on the same level, but in front of lower-level employees that you are over? Never.
In the “almost” 2yrs that I have worked here, I have never heard so much gossip IN THE WORKPLACE in my LIFE! And it’s everything you can think of…from people getting fired, to Supervisors having an affair with employees to Supervisors getting demoted. Lol It’s crazy!
Early February, management divided up my department into 2 parts. My part was more of the successful group who has achieved more, and they wanted us to do other projects. It was also smaller…about 13 people compared to the other group, which were about 50. I loved it. Less commotion, less people to see, less drama, less everything!
But then it started again. You see, management gave us the option of downloading Yahoo Messenger. We can just send a message to another co-worker or a Supervisor without having to get up or send an email and having to wait another hour for a response from that. Of course, a lot of us have been using it just to have casual conversations not work related and I know I am guilty of that.
My co-workers know I have a boyfriend. They know he lives in Chicago, and they know I am trying to move there to be closer to him. And that’s all they know. They know nothing about him personally.
Monday and today of this week I haven’t been feeling well. I had a huge headache all yesterday and I started my period today and have terrible cramps because of it (Sorry men out there lol). So, I haven’t been really social to everyone. I been keeping to myself and while everyone was asking me why I was so quiet, I just said nothing and kept working.
This morning I came in to work, turned on my computer and once on, turned on my Yahoo Messenger. I had 3 Offline Messages (For those not familiar with Yahoo Messenger…when you are offline and someone sends you a message you automatically get it once you log back on). The one that stuck out was from my co-worker and this is what it said: “and i know you are right, she has to learn on her own…….but tell me how he can be so intimidating to her all the way from Chicago, how is a dude gonna control you from another state and you say he wont even come here…..please” This message is obviously talking about my boyfriend and I (Whom lives in Chicago) and how, for whatever reason, they think he is controlling me? I don’t care what it means, I don’t care what the person that sent it thinks of my boyfriend, but I do care how my name is once again being thrown in the dirt…and somehow my poor boyfriend is coming along as well (Which really angers me even more because these people DON’T EVEN KNOW HIM…LET ALONE HAVE MET HIM!)
The even more sad part about this is that the person that sent this…she obviously meant to send this to another person. But by her “talking bout me” she made a mistake, picked my name from her Messenger List and sent it to me. This person is someone I have gone to on many occasions to discuss OTHER things I wanted to talk to someone about. I told her about my future wedding plans (Not engaged but ever so often I fantasize about it lol), my wedding scrapbook I am making, problems I have had with other people, the hours we do at work, how I cant wait to move to Chicago but never personal information about my relationship. I told my boyfriend about the situation and he said I should ask her about. Just ask if the message was meant for someone else and see what she says. He even said I should print it out and let her read it herself. I thought this was a great idea and did just that. I didn’t have an attitude when I did this and just smiled and waited for what she was going to say…and guess what it was…”I was actually talking to Pat (Another co-worker) and these first few words are mine but I don’t know where the rest came from” She then began to explain how maybe the IM’s got intertwined like the phone lines…when you can hear other people phone calls…maybe that’s what happened here and this is someone else’s message. Whhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhattttttttt!!!!!!!!!!! First of all, I know she is new to Yahoo, but that just doesn’t make since at all. Whoever you send the message to…THAT PERSON IS GOING TO GET IT! You fucked up! Yo ass got caught now cough the TRUTH up! I am tripping so hard on her because this is someone I confided in and trusted. And it hurt that she stabbed me in the back…and for some reason, she is not the first…
Another co-worker I was getting close to stood me up a couple times when I invited her to go out. I let that go and we start going to the gym together. Talking everyday on the Instant Messenger. Same co-worker, I told her about my cousin that was PLAYING HER ASS so she wouldn’t look like too big of a dumb ass that she was dating a married man (And I hear she is still talking to his ass…damn bitch, is the dick that good!)! And you know how she thanked me? She stops talking to me…claims I did something to piss her off and when I ask her about it she doesn’t want to tell me why and then continues to not talk to me. Which is fine. One less bitch to deal with.
ANOTHER co-worker of mine is fucking Bi-Polar! One day she is talking my fucking ear off non-stop and the next she has a damn attitude and turns her WHOLE fucking chair around to have her back facing me and doesn’t talk to me for the rest of the day…then the next day she is hyper as hell again! I can’t take this shit! I aint used to meeting people like that!
I am already stressed at work because I am not getting paid enough and I am working 55hrs a week … Why is my life and my relationship so damn interesting to people?!?!
I am here to do 1 job. WORK. I am not here to meet friends. I would have liked to along the way but it looks like that shit is not going to happen. Therefore, leave me alone; leave my business alone and PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE, KEEP MY NAME AND THOUGHTS OF MY MAN OUT OF YOUR HEAD! I don’t know how else I can make that clear!
P.S. Instant Messengers are a dangerous thing (Especially for me…I don’t know why I keep getting messed up in these Yahoo scandals lol). If you don’t know how to use it, I suggest you don’t!

Why Can't We All Just Get Along?

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Ever since I was younger, I always wanted to have many friends. I wanted everyone to like me. I loved the idea of having a lot of great girlfriends to go to when I was having problems or just to go out with. In my eyes, having great friends were a necessity because who doesn’t have friends?
As I got older, I noticed how women minds change and they start to argue more than men, gossip and even hold grudges for a long period of time. There are a lot of women who are hard to get along with. I never agreed with this before, but as I get older the more, I believe its true. You never hear men saying “I aint hanging with him because he always talking bout me!” Men don’t do petty shit like that. I am sure there are some out there, but the women are outweighing men in this category. They all hang out and actually get along! Thank God, I have a great and versatile personality where I have never had a problem communicating or getting along with anyone. People love me! I have a great personality, have great communication skills and I very good listener.
I have heard so many times women say they have a lot of male friends for this simple reason: They can’t get along with women.
Why is that? Are you that immature or that stuck up? Are your friends not enough sluts for you or do you keep taking your friends man? Are you a hater and just get jealous easily? Or are you just a plain fucking bitch? I am not calling any particular woman out, but a situation I have had recently just got me thinking about this…
I recently wrote a Blog titled “Miss Independent Woman”. It was about how I don’t agree with women dating men who have money for the simple reason to have them pay for everything. I think people should grow up, make their own money and support themselves (If they can’t financially that’s another story but if someone is deliberately trying to get with someone because of the fact they want their bills paid…that’s a gold-digger). This Blog was a rebuttal from a Blog I read from a co-worker of mine. That was her opinion that she wants a man to pay for everything for her and it was mine to voice the opposite of that. That’s what Blogs are for…to vent and voice your opinions however you like. The url on this site is http://www.livefearconquer.blogspot.com/ so if you don’t like what you read please move on. These are my opinions and my views.
I believe this person read this particular Blog because she stopped talking to me unexpectedly…for months. I was very surprised, because like I said before, I get along with everyone…I don’t have problems with anyone…I don’t argue (Unless I have to) I am pretty loveable…seriously (LOL). So I asked her if I did something wrong and she said I did piss her off but now she is over it…but she won’t tell me what I did. Which I thought was pretty immature. If I have a problem with anyone (Especially someone I thought I was tight with), I would let them know why they made me mad and move on…someone people rather hold grudges and rather ruin something that could have been a great friendship in a mess.
So I decided I am through. I am so tired of reaching out to people who don’t give a fuck. I am 25 and I have great friends (I don’t have much but I rather have a few then a lot of bitches who claim they got my back) behind me, I have my man, family (When they getting on my nerves) and God. That’s all I need. I will continue to be nice and courteous to people, of course, but I am not going to go out my way to hang out with people (Get stood up a couple times, but that’s ANOTHER BLOG PEOPLE), befriend them and they get mad about something so little and petty and never want to talk to me again in life. What’s the point? Seriously. That’s a thing you did in high school. We are grown! I would never stop talking to someone for them expressing their opinions. But then again…I really don’t know if this is the reason…this is a really good guess…because I haven’t done anything out of the ordinary so…if its not my bad (LOL But this has turned into a really good Blog and everything I have said it still true regarding women not getting along with other women).
So I am going to continue to live my life…continue to write what I want and how I want to. Continue to work and make my money and pay my own bills and handle mines!
I am a very open-minded individual and love making friends so everyone is welcome in my world!

Go Cry Me A River

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Hello Readers,
Not too much has been going on. I am still pretty saddened of the loss of Michael Jackson. It’s still so shocking. He was a great entertainer and God defiantly blessed him with much talent. You will truly be missed, Michael.
I just think it’s so funny how people say how much they love and adore music artists and may buy their CD’s here and there…but AS SOON AS THEY DIE…they are getting posters, putting their pictures as backgrounds on their computers, and hurrying to the stores to buy all the CD’s they DIDN’T buy when the artist was alive! I understand you want to get memories but, you were not picking up their albums, posters and what no when they were alive…how are you helping them now that they are dead?
That’s a fan…but to a certain level. Yeah you like the person, you can maintain to listen to their full songs when the come on the radio and if a concert pop up on the TV, maybe, you will watch…I was a Backstreet Boys FAN…HARDCORE! I had every single CD AND cassette tape! Everything I saw them in a magazine I cut it out and put it in a PHOTO ALBUM! (LOL And I took this to college ALONG with my BSB BOOKBAG!) Every time they came on TV, I got a blank tape and TAPED THE WHOLE SHOW (I believe I had 3 full tapes of clips of their videos, shows they did and concerts. I randomly sat and watched them when I was horny for the BSB)! Now, to me that’s a true fan. I didn’t wait until they all died and then went out and got everything their face was on. And you know what…I STILL listen to their music and I am hoping they come together again and make a freakin movie or something cause I will defiantly go see it! Now that’s what a fan is. But that’s just my opinion…
As in my previous Blog, I discussed how I am trying very hard to manage my funds better and to purchase things that are “needed” and not “wanted”. Well, I will like to say, for the first time ever, I have purchased my own Laptop! I got it from QVC and it is a HP Pavilion and it’s 15.4in. The color is gold and it is so beautiful! This is something I need (And wanted) and its all mine! I bought it with my own hard earned money and it felt great! I haven’t been using it a lot yet, because I work so much and when I get home I pass out but I defiantly will this weekend…so can’t wait for that!
Another thing I realized is how fast “associates” come and go (Maybe that’s why there are associates, but you get what I am saying). For those you don’t know what I am referring to…associates are people that you don’t “claim” as your friends…for whatever reasons…maybe you don’t trust them enough, you don’t know them well, you talk every once in awhile…whatever the reason may be…they are not apart of your “real friend” circle. I have had PLENTY of associates in my life. Most of them were because I didn’t trust them and wasn’t going to bother to let them into my life. And others were because I didn’t know them enough and by the time I thought we really good friends…we stopped talking for whatever reason…
One situation that recently just happened was myself being very friendly to a particular person (Female). In the beginning of us meeting, we got along fantastic! People were asking if we knew each other from other place. All of a sudden, for whatever reason, she stopped talking to me. This is someone I talked to everyday so when this happened, it did make me wonder if I did something wrong, which I know I didn’t, so I didn’t let it phase me and stopped worrying about it because I thought maybe she was just going through something and would come around when she wants to (Especially knowing how females can act sometimes. They may hear something and hold a grudge for the MOST childish things). After months of not talking, I finally see her and I said excited, “Hey gurl!” and then she said, without even looking at me, “Hey” and kept walking…with a straight face. “Wow” was all I said in my head. I don’t know what I did or maybe I didn’t do anything. Maybe she just doesn’t want to have that relationship with me as before. I thought we were beginning to become really good friends…I let her know things I really didn’t need to let her know about. I could have sat back and let someone (Someone in particular) make a fool of her, but I didn’t because I value the relationships I have with certain people because of the “good relationship” (Meaning, I don’t find good relationships with people often), but maybe she thought otherwise. But, like I said before, associates come and go. I am very blessed I do have the one great friend who has stayed the longest…from teens to real women…love you Mz. CeCe (LOL).
This is starting to be a long Blog, but I have one more thing to talk about. I laugh every now and then about this because I really think people believe I am a dumb ass and they can get over on me. I just talked about how people will stop talking to you without giving a 2-week notice (Song by Fantasia…Love it!) and there are other people who you cuss out and TELL them you don’t want to talk to them anymore and they CONTINUE TO TALK TO YOU! I fell out with a female because she told someone something…that in which told my sister…that was only meant for her ears. Let’s call this person Dana. Dana is someone I met when I was in middle school…and hasn’t seen her since! I found her on MySpace and we talk every once in a while on there or on Yahoo Messenger. I have never told Dana any personal business of mine…this was the first time (And the LAST). I asked Dana why she told this person my business and that I will never feel comfortable telling her anything else about me or basically anything at all that would come out of my mouth and that I never want to speak to her again. Dana says she never said anything. People, DANA WAS THE ONLY PERSON I TOLD! So, I asked how else would my sister find out? She claims she doesn’t know! And we have this crazy back and forth…back and forth. We then don’t speak for months…she then contact me on Facebook and I have NOTHING to say…she then sends me something on Yahoo Messenger. I start to have simple conversation and she says something smart on why I can’t let anything go and that I am acting “stupid”. That’s when I blew up and said, “If you just tell me, right here and now, tell me the truth…if you told her…I would let this go and never bring it up again.” She then she lied again and said no. Now, maybe its me, but I seriously don’t understand if I tell 1 person something…and it ends up where 2 other people know…that person I told MUST have said something! Am I wrong? Dana fought with me tooth and nails saying this didn’t happen…but, I can’t make anyone tell the truth so, I guess only God and her will know what really happened. The point I wanted to get across is the people who you don’t have a problem with suddenly can stop talking and leave you alone forever and the people you always have the problem with…constantly coming back to bite you in the ass again and again. Can’t win…

My New Hobby

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Little gurls have thought about it.
As a teenager, I have fantasized about it and “played” the part in my head.
Now as a woman, I can’t wait until the Big Day.
Yes, I am talking about my own wedding. It’s a joyous day many people (Not all) can’t wait for. When I was young, I couldn’t wait to fall in love and now that I am in love, I can’t wait for my boyfriend to propose.
The other week I was driving in my car and was listening to Kenny G.’s Greatest Hits (2007) and I came across the song, “Innocence” …and I absolutely fell in love! As I got to work, I told my co-worker about this great song…then it hit me. “I can write all my ideas down so I won’t forget for my own wedding day…IN A SCRARPBOOK! I was soo freakin excited about this I had to tell someone…unfortunately it was a man. After I told him what I have planned to do you know what he told me? He looked straight at me and said, “You should read the Steve Harvey book, “Act Like a Lady, Think Like a Man: What Men Really Think About Love, Relationships, Intimacy, and Commitment”. Now, since I was not up-to-date with the latest book releases celebrities are having nowadays so I certainly had no clue on what he was talking about. He then continued to say, “You really need to read this book. I have it and I am reading it and I will let you borrow it.” So now I tell him “That has nothing to do with what I just said…what are you talking about?” My co-worker then went on to say that it’s a really good book and will teach me about how men really think.
At this point, I am getting pretty irritated because I know where this conversation is going. So I begin a new conversation with another co-worker and ask her about this book. She then explains about the purpose:
In Act Like a Lady, Think Like a Man, Steve lets women inside the mindset of a man and sheds lights on concepts and questions such as:
—The Ninety Day Rule: Ford requires it of its employees. Should you require it of your man?
—How to spot a mama’s boy and what if anything you can do about it.
—When to introduce the kids. And what to read into the first interaction between your date and your kids.
—The five questions every woman should ask a man to determine how serious he is.
So, basically this book is about how men feel about women and commitments. Therefore, my co-worker was referring to a lot of different things:
1) My man doesn’t really love me
2) He is not committed to me
3) He is not ready for marriage
4) Or he was trying to hoe me in front on my colleagues.
Immediately I was offended. All I told this person was that I wanted to started a Wedding Planning Scrapbook and he basically tells me I really don’t know what my man really feels for me…basically he doesn’t love me and this book will give me the signs and reasons why! Who does this guy think he is? How about is he between 43-50. Not married. Maybe…not in a relationship. DOESN’T EVEN BELIEVE IN MARRIAGE…so, therefore, he probably doesn’t believe he should be committed to anyone. And why is he reading this book? Maybe he needs to find out some shit about his own damn self! But he can CERTAINLY preach to me and anyone else that will listen what THEY should do in their relationships. Which is pretty crazy to me.
Let me clarify this…on the record. This Wedding Planning Scrapbook is for me. It’s for my ideas and my thoughts that I want written down. So, when I do become engaged and when I (Because I will) start planning my wedding, I will have everything I need and everything will be in place…I WILL have my colors, my flowers, my music, my table displays, my bridesmaids…EVERYTHING WILL BE IN THIS BOOK! It has nothing to do with my boyfriend, but everything to do with me. Maybe I won’t marry my boyfriend (I hope to God I do) and if I don’t…my Scrapbook will still be with me because it will be what I WANT IN MY FUCKING WEDDING!
I just hope this clarified for everyone out there. I really don’t care about what people think, but this situation really made me angry.
P.S. When I do get engaged…I will also set up a website and will be making ANOTHER Scrapbook that will display my pics of the wedding in a very beautiful way!