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13yrs Later … WOW!
Well … H E L L O!
Found this old blog of mine from over TEN YEARS ago! Went through many of my posts and I just couldn’t believe what I was reading! It literally made me laugh re-living all the situations I went through and even my mindset back then.
My friends, family and co-workers that got on my nerves so much! My INSANE, long distance, relationship with my so-called boyfriend and how I really thought he was the one but in reality, he was the worst thing that could have happened to me. I learned SO MUCH from that relationship and wished I would have done a lot of things differently.
One big thing is TELLING SOMEONE about how he treated me. Confiding in someone… anyone that would have told me that relationship wasn’t right, that is not how men treat their women, that he has characteristics of being a narcissist!
I spent SOOOOO much money and time on this man, going back and forth from Michigan to Chicago and he NEVER EVER EVER stepped one foot in my state to visit me! Not one time in 5yrs.
I finally had enough. I started looking through his phone, looking through his mail (when I visited) to find anything and everything to break up with him. I tried many times before and he would break down and SOB! One time he even threatened to off himself. At this point, I didn’t care. I NEEDED to get out of that relationship. After snooping, I learned so much! He was a bum! Living with his mother (Even though he claimed she gave him the house, but was always there smh), for YEARS never worked! He literally lied about his whole life. From his first name to his age, to even lying about the mother of his child’s age (I found his son’s birth certificate that had the ages of both parents. He basically knocked up a 17yr old when he was in his early 20’s smh. He claimed they were both the same age smh). And to top it off he was MEAN! VERY MEAN! He always made me cry. He knew I was thee most kindest person ever so he definitely took advantage of my kindness and how young I was.
He took my 20’s.
I really wish I could get that time back.
I wish I could go back and save more money, spend more time with my friends and TRAVEL! I hate him for that.
But anyways, I literally wrote about my whole life on this blog…but I will say, I didn’t know this then …but it was SO therapeutic. And I didn’t know this back then how much BLOGGING was really helping me. I was 26, graduated from college, living with my whole family in a small house and was just trying to find out who I was.
I was growing up and letting it all out ONLINE!
I thought I would come back to the Blogging World because of the outlet it gave me.
My Blog is my Therapist, as I lay on the couch and pour out what’s been going on in my life. This Blog is a piece of me .. my inner self. And it gives me peace letting it all out!
I don’t care who reads it, but please come with compassion, positivity and be ready to laugh!
I WILL NOT PUT UP ANY PICS OF MYSELF. This is literally for me to just let it out.
Cheers to the New Chapter in my life (will explain in the next post) and to raising my Blog from the dead!
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Big Update
So haven’t blogged in a while. Hope everyone is doing well. Had a great Birthday. Unfortunately, my boyfriend couldn’t make it. Couldn’t find a babysitter. I was pretty angry with him about this. I reminded him a month before and kept reminding him until he got tired of me to start asking people to babysit.But, of course, he still waited until the LAST min to ask anyone, and his sister couldn’t do it.I still had a great time. I went to a jazz lounge, to a lame club then off to place where people go after the club’s end…it was a reggae place where people “smoked” and danced. I don’t “smoke” but it was different and fun….Saving up to move is becoming very difficult. Unfortunately, another car out the question. So I will have take my same old ass car with me. Im going to rent an U-Haul and put the car on the back of it because I don’t think it will get there alone…Now I am more focused on saving money and preparing myself to move! -
The Cat Is Out The Bag
So my sister put it upon herself to be the spokeswoman of Kristen. She went right out and told my mom that I’m moving to Chicago.I haven’t told my parents this because I was goin to sit both my parents down and tell them myself!After she told her, my mom rushed in my room and yelled if I’m moving. I said yes and she said that I’m making a dumb choice but I’m grown!I really don’t see what the big deal is. I’m moving to be closer to the man I love, goin to school and working! What’s wrong wit that!I know none of the kids has ever moved away, but this is something she will need to deal with. -
Stratch That Last One
So I thought about it. Having the B-Day party on the boat is getting expensive. I want a $100 – $150 dress, hair, nails, make-up, and feet done, new shoes and accessories, birthday cake, and not even taking about the boat ticket and drinks that night….the $$$ is getting pretty high.I also just decided I am moving to Chicago Aug 21st….and I need to sell my car before. It really needs struts which is $650 and I really can’t afford that. And I don’t want to go on a 5hr car ride with the car jumping up and down like crazy. So I am going to try to sell my car for AT LEAST $1000 (It’s a Burgundy 1990 Buick Lasabre…put at least $2000 into it already. Only thing it needs is studs. Just got a tune-up and oil change this past weekend so if you in the Detroit area or know someone who needs a car let me know. Or if you want to drive to come and see it let me know. Her name is Beatrice!) and use that to get another car…which I have to save for. I will try to get something that’s at least a 2000 and pay between $2500 – $3000.So Big Boat Birthday Bash “Bye Bye”. Maybe another yr because I got to get more important stuff together.I still believe I’m going to have a great birthday. My boyfriend is still going to come down. I REALLY think it’s just going to be me and him. I want to take him to this nice Jazz Club I love. It also has some great food and great drinks and we can go back to the room and have some great you-know-what! HahahahaIts so funny how I went from a big birthday party to just a nice dinner for 2. I’m still excited. And blessed to see another yr! -
Life Is Good
Been doing great. Working and saving money. I have now decided to move to Chicago 2nd week in Aug and I start school for Paralegal Studies on Sep 9 at Northwestern College in Chicago.My 26th birthday will be here May 23rd and I am having a big Birthday Bash on May 22nd on the Detroit Princess boat Downtown Detroit. I am planning on losing 30lbs by then so I can look sexier than EVER WITH A FANASTIC DRESS!!! I cant wait and the closer I get the more excited I am.My boyfriend is coming down to celebrate with me and FINALLY meet my parents. Its been over 3 yrs so its due time.am just so happy. Im happy for my life, health and strength and that God gives me the strength to face another day to be a better Child of His, a better friend, sister and daughter. Life is worth so much value and we take it for granted.With more news, my co-worker quit last Friday. She got her check and said peace out! Its more to the story:She came here about 8yrs ago on a work transfer from General Motors from Ohio then they laid her off after 4yrs and she found a job where I work. Her whole family is in Ohio…her mom, her boyfriend…who just proposed…her siblings. So she has planned to move…just had a lease she was stuck with and now the lease ran out and she had to be out in a week so she bounced. I am so happy for her. Not only did she leave a job she didnt even like…she went for what was in her heart. She got tired of playing the long-distance game with her man and traveling back and forth to see him and her mom. She gave me inspiration for real. I cant wait to say peace out to my job! Counting down the days! -
Taking It To The Next Step
I have been involved with my boyfriend for 3yrs on February 3rd. It has been a great relationship. We have had our rocky times but we have gotten through it together…and lasted. Even though I live in Michigan and he is in Chicago and were see each other once or twice a month, we are still together. Through the hurt (Not too much) and tears (Sad I couldn’t see him a lot).Now I have come to a place where I am tired of not seeing my man every day. I want to sleep, cuddle, eat and play with him just like other couples do with each other. So I have decided its time. Its time to start applying for jobs, getting interviews and moving there so I can see him everyday! I am already in my process. He has obtained a new job as well which makes it even better.
Another big step I am leaning towards is moving in with him. He still lives in the same home he grew up in. He son stays in his old room. The home is paid for so we would go half on utilizes. I will be saving so much than if I rented my own. And you know what? I’m ready! And so is he. We know this is it and we are going to get married someday. I’m so excited I finally found the one and I feel so loved by him and I’m ready to start my life with him also. It’s just a great feeling and I just wanted to share that with you guys!
I’m extra excited for our Anniversary. I thought about doing something simple…Italian dinner and then off to a jazz/blues club. I also thought about getting something sexy for the night time when we everything is over. Maybe even something real slutty from Lover’s Lane. I told my co-worker and she said I was doing too much! How is that doing too much? Dont every woman do something sexy for her man every once in awhile? Maybe cause she is 40yrs old and pretty old school and dont know nothing bout that…prob havent even done anything like that either! Who knows, but Im going to do what I want!!!
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Welcome 2010
I had a great New Year’s Eve!Didn’t go to the club. No party. Didn’t even get really dressed up … at all. I went over to my gurl house and we just drank and watched TV. Watched the ball drop. It was pretty fun. No drama, no fighting, just 2 bottles of wine and a gallon of Bacardi. I noticed it takes me a lot to get drunk. So got pretty tipsy and that’s about it … still had fun though.Don’t believe in making New Year Resolutions. Who actually keep those anyways? Never regret things you do. Just grow and try not to make the same mistakes again.I am hoping this year brings forth new possibilities, new opportunities and another chance to embrace new changes!Each day I wake up God gives me another chance to be a better person, girlfriend, sister, daughter, best friend. Another day of being the best Child of God I can be! And I thank Him for that chance!Hope you guys had a great night and have great opportunities ahead of you as well. -
And The Drama Continues …
So my mother decides she doesn’t want to drop “the boyfriend” issue.She is still not giving up on try and getting me to stay home for the holiday. A couple days after the first half of the drama, I woke up and started getting myself together for work. She begins talking about how she doesn’t like the fact that I am going to Chicago and I need to stay home with my family for Christmas. I told her I spent the holiday with them last year and I would really like to spend with my boyfriend.She then went on and told me I need to get some self-respect. I couldn’t believe it. She then went on about how I can be with someone that would treat me this way and that she doesn’t want to bury a daughter. I then got loud and said he doesn’t do anything to mistreat me. We had one small argument she heard and how everyone argues. She then told me not to yell. So I said forget it. I let her say what she had to say, even though none of it was true. I guess it was making her feel better to say it.Later that night, I went to one of my sisters and told her what she said and that I was very hurt that she told me I needed self-respect (I actually got in my car on the way to work and cried). She then said maybe I should just let them meet him and see how a great guy he is and she wouldn’t think the way she does. I actually was FINALLY going to let everyone meet him sometime soon (Yeah, 3yrs is a long time to go) but got so pissed I just said forget it! But maybe she is right. Maybe I will let them meet him cause one thing that will get me straight fighting is to diss my man!I will let you guys know how that goes! -
Let Me Handle This
No relationship is perfect. Although we would all love to assume so. All couples get into little arguments every once in awhile. Some arguments are bigger than others.Since my boyfriend and I do not live in the same state we really don’t have much to fight about since we don’t even see each other every day. The most we really fight about is one of us will get angry the other person didn’t call or one is too tired to stay on the phone and talk. Real stupid stuff. Believe me!Yesterday was a very lazy and laid-back day for him and me. We haven’t spent lot of our time on the phone during the week because I have been working 65hrs a week and when I come home, I just want to go to sleep. So Sunday, we chatted for most of the afternoon. On the phone I learned that Brittany Murphy died by reading someone’s Twitter. I then began looking on the internet for more answers. I told him about it and he couldn’t remember who she was and I was giving him movies and he still didn’t get it.He then started asking me all these questions and I tried to answer but he kept interrupting me then we got into a big fight on the fact that I’m tired of him ALWAYS interrupting me when I talk and he claims I interrupt him (He ALWAYS ALWAYS interrupt me … not the other way around). We hung p on each other and everything! Lol See, stupid stuff. Lol P.S. we made up 10min later.Anyways, I woke up this morning getting myself together for work. I was in the kitchen and my mom came in asking me if I am still going to Chicago for Christmas. I answered back of course I am. She said even after all that fighting? I told her it wasn’t a big deal. We were hardly even fighting. She said oh no it wasn’t blah blah blah. She said well just don’t come home crying to me when you have a black eye. I was like woooooow!I left to get some things out of my room to leave for work. I went into the kitchen for my lunch, and hoping the conversation was over. She had on the news and said how the woman on the TV is missing and her husband probably did it. I asked how you know I wasn’t yelling at him. How do you know I didn’t start the argument? How do you know if we did get into a fight, I wouldn’t throw the first punch?She then said if I didn’t have such low self esteem I can find a better man who respects me. Excuse me? I have been with this man for 3yrs in February and it makes me so mad when people make WHO HAVE NEVER EVEN MET HIM makes up this crap that he is such a bad guy! And low self esteem, he has been the ONLY person in this world who has ever truly made me feel beautiful. If I have issues about the way I look it’s because of my sisters and my parents. I was hardly called my freakin name in that house when I was growing up. It was fatty this and fat hog that and now that I am older and I can actually love the skin I’m in and have finally found a man who loves the same…please believe I’m not giving that up. He gives me the utmost respect, never has laid a hand on me and no I am not staying because I believe I can’t find someone else but because of that fact that he does make me happy and yeah…we actually FELL IN LOVE! Someone actually fell in love with fatty! Can u believe it!!!This is another reason why my family has never met my boyfriend. And if they keep acting like they will never meet him until my engagement party! -
Update on Muah
Wow, it has been almost a month since the last time I wrote a Blog. Guess I have been a really busy bee!So this month has been one with surprises…some good and some bad.1st I know this is going to make some of you a little sad but… I took out my nipple piercings on 12-12-09. After I changed the bar bells and put in the rings it went downhill for my right nipple. I found out the piercer pierced me way too deep and behind my nipple. It was hurting and kept bleeding (Not a lot just a little). I was always in pain and I got very sick and tired of it so I made the decision to take them out. My boyfriend was sad but he understood. Maybe in another year I will get them pierced again (And of course go to a different piercer).2nd I am so excited Christmas is coming. Not for the presents, not even to buy any gifts for anyone. But to spend Christmas with my loving boyfriend. I miss him so much. I am leaving Christmas Eve and will return Sunday. I love getting away to Chicago to be with him. I need time away from my family!I realized this year I could care less about the gifts. Don’t care who spending money on whom. Yes, it’s nice but I’m over it. I guess it’s me becoming an adult. It’s for the kids. I want them to have a good time.3rd So what happened to the financially stable Kristen that loves to save? What happened to the Kristen that had $2000 in her savings account and knew where her money was going? I have been spending so much its crazy. Some were car repairs and a lot was shopping, shopping and more shopping! My savings is now gone and I’m again starting from scratch. Thank God I don’t have any credit cards or any HUGE bills and can’t wait for that tax return coming up! Hope it’s good! So more saving and less spending!!!4th So now that I have decided I need to calm down and save more, I do want to do something for myself once or twice a month just to spoil me for whatever reason … because I can! So I started getting my nails done and I freakin love it! My nails are freakin gorgeous and I can’t believe I went so long without having them done! I have had the French mani and right now I have pink and white….sooo pretty! I’m going to start posting pics soon!I also started back into Scrapbooking. This summer I got into it but was only concerned with doing My Wedding. Well I defiantly stepped out of that phase and now want to do pics of my friends, family and of course me and my man! I am defiantly going to post pic of my finished pages and I hope you guys go easy on my cause I am a 1st timer! J5th I was so saddened to hear about Brittany Murphy’s death. So tragic and I am learning that she may have even died of natural causes (Now I hear it may be because of her eating disorder). How natural is death at the age of 32 but if it’s your time to go Home it’s your time. My prayers go out to her family. She was such a beautiful person an actress.To all my new friends of my Blog, I love to stay up to date with everyone than just here on Blogger, so please follow me at http://twitter.com/LuvlyKristen. Follow me and I will follow you!
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